Release me from this body,
This entrapment,
These breasts.
Slice off this makeup,
Remove my dress.
Fuck this bloody curse,
These widened hips,
My sultry lips.
My worth,
IS NOT
Between my thighs
YOU BETTER,
Look up,
Watch your eyes,
Before I count to three,
One, two…..
Barefoot and pregnant,
Is that all I am?
Legs open,
At his call.
It’s all yours, so his
Never mine.
Fuck this.
Scalp me bald,
Starch,
Naked.
Dress me in a suit,
Let me grow my beard,
What are you afraid of?
Seeing that there is a woman in here.
A different kind of woman,
Not dainty, never frail.
My femininity doesn’t define,
My masculine side neither.
The man within me,
Is not the woman without.
A gown on one day,
Slacks the next.
I am woman, Hear Me ROAR!
I will never be,
Just a common whore.
The man is within me,
The woman,
Without.
I am not without a woman,
Even when I am a man.
Without,
A doubt.
Wednesday, April 16, 2014
The Man Within
School's Got Me Like....
My hell,
My Pastel Pink Hell.
Blanched Walls Never End,
This Is The Place Where I’ve Been Sent,
For Crimes Unknown,
Victims Not Told.
Snapping Tails, High Heels,
Screaming Men, Muscular Build.
Where Am I, In This Group?
Why Am I Here,
Never There,
Always Scared,
To Make A Move,
To Utter A Sound.
Stealing Our Souls,
Our Ideas,
My Potential,
Teachers, Some
Not All.
Pale Faces,
With The Occasional Spot.
Brick Walls, White Washed,
Brain Washed.
Creativity Gone,
Where’d She Go?
I Don’t Know.
There Is No Beauty Here,
I Feel Like I’m In Hell.
Melting Down,
Touch The Ground,
Fading Away,
Faded.
No Color,
No Life,
Just Plain.
Death.
Out of Sight.
And The Saddest Thing Is,
I Am One Of Them,
It’s My Fault Too.
I Am Their Hell,
They are Mine,
I Am Theirs.
I Am Who I Fear,
I Fear What I Hate.
School.
Hell.
Blank.
Slate
Wednesday, April 9, 2014
ShallowBreathsZeroThoughtsPureBliss
Friday, February 7, 2014
Untitled (How Does It Feel?)
My affection aches for what never was,
A moment in time, forever set on repeat.
Your skin was so soft,
beneath my weight.
Your freckles danced,
with each movement of your face.
What did I fear?
Why was I scared?
I loved you.
I liked you.
I knew you.
I was you.
Mine eyes reflected yours,
in a gaze of pure innocence.
I had nothing to abhor,
for that I am sure.
You gave me your all,
you wanted my hand.
I need you know,
I needed you then.
Your scent was that of the ocean,
a wonderful elixir of pungent salt,
nice and fresh.
Passion in your eyes,
so brazen, so bold.
You are so beautiful.
You were so serene.
I need you now.
I needed you then
My carcass betrayed me.
It absconded me from you.
I can not take back,
the actions I took.
I want to retract the things that I said.
A break in time,
destined for enchantment,
lifted from me,
by my own apprehension.
Friday, January 17, 2014
Neglect Me
My eyes are closed in a deep despair.
I am desperate to leave,
I cannot be here.
In the system, institutionalized.
No mind, no soul, no break, no breath.
Just another body meandering through space.
Just another face, that will soon be forgotten.
I hate the life, I'm forced to live.
I cannot take the lies, the meaningless fibs.
I am in a blue blur.
I cannot stand.
I cannot think.
I am robotic, a mechanical tink.
I live day to day, hour to hour,
depressed and confused.
Am I not someone,
am I not anyone.
There use to be hope, in these blue blur eyes.
There use to be fire, in this long dimmed soul.
But now I know, we are all the same.
Our lives mean nothing.
Ain't that a shame.
I am you and you are me which is we.
And all we are, all I am.
Is just a different stroke of grey,
in these fifty shades.