Killing Me Softly

"Pain enveloping my inner,
Grief entering my outer.
The notion of life without my other, is a life I'd hesitate to live"

Blissful and beautiful were we,
Young and naive.
We thought love could get us through the worst,
we thought love could make it last.
When the ill times came,
We weren't prepared to cope.
When the devil left Pandora's box at our doorsteps,
you reached in and were engulfed by temptation.
There was a time when love was enough. Is it still?
What is right in our minds,
may not be right in our hearts.
What once was heart-clenching, mind numbing love,
you excuse as an ecstasy induced phase.
Blinded are you by the evils of the world.
So easy is it to let the devil in,
But in time you'll want him out, you will need him out to keep your life, or what little existence remains.
When you are ready to give in to the will of the Lord,
after being dead for so many years,
You'll find yourself among the elderly, weak and frail.
You'll find yourself by yourself, alone and isolated.
For all those years you've spent in the dark, has left you dim.
Ignorant to the tearful pleas of those who loved you,
Or who loved who you once were.
Their voices have tired,
their defenses, have weakened.
They had to leave,
Better one dead than two.
For when you kill yourself with the evils of the world,
You are bludgeoning the ones around you as well.

I wrote this in the perspective of a woman who has been cheated on way too long. She loves her husband, but she now realizes that there comes a point where you have to start living for yourself again. She understands that if she continues to stay in this poisoned relationship, with this treacherous man, her soul will die before her body.